Feeling Gloomy On a Sunny Day

I'm having kind of a hard day today. I see all these amazing mommas gettin' BFP's and finding out genders etc. And although Brian and I are done and we were planning on being done, a little piece of my heart breaks knowing that because of the health issues I'm facing I can't have another baby even of we wanted to. Ill never again face the excitement of a BFP or finding out if its a boy or girl...
I am so beyond thankful that I got to at least have my girl and my boy. I am also very excited for my mommas getting to go through those experiences and I have learned to count my blessings. However there are still days that its just hard.